Thursday, December 20, 2007


A favorite song of mine is "One" by U2. I'd been hearing about a version of the song with U2 and Mary J. Blige and I went ahead and bought it from iTunes. I have to say it is a hell of a cover of a beautiful song. Mary J. Blige, though I am admittedly unfamiliar with most of her work, has a fabulous voice. She sings parts of the song with such conviction and power it just makes me want to listen to it over and over again.

Anyway - if you like U2 and you like that song, treat yourself to listening to Mary J's version.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Register those alternate Domain names stupid!

Well if we needed proof that the Writer's Guild of America members ARE worth their weight in gold, the move on their part ot set up a parody website of the AMPTP's websiteproves it. Simply put - it is hilarious!

AMPTP did not register/acquire the .com version of their domain name. Since the fella who owned it was willing to sell, the writers bought it (or leased it - not sure) and set up a site that looks exactly like the official site...but with brilliant satirical content.


So check out the real site:
And the fake site:

Additional Commentary from Nikke Finke's

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Ian Brown has a new album!

I just love the former Stone Roses singer's solo works. He just released his 5th studio album since 1999 and I just found out about it today.

He's not the most technically talented singer, but there is something about his voice (probably the heavy Mancunian accent) and musical style that I just love and can listen to over and over.

His lyrics are also lovely - at times bizarre, sweet or mysterious.

Anyway I'm just thrilled that there is another album out there that I can enjoy. Hopefully I'll catch him in concert someday.

Ian Brown's Website

Video: Ian Brown - Illegal Attacks

Video: Ian Brown - Sister Rose

Thursday, November 01, 2007

what is home?

This is a question I am struggling with at the moment. This past year I have been helping my mother work to find a new home closer to where my husband, daughter and I live and sell our childhood home. "The farm" as we have always called it is in a quiet, precious little valley on a dirt road in southern Preston County. It has always served as my definition of home. It was what I thought of in long lonely nights thousands of miles away in Europe...or even just a 35 miles away in Morgantown as an undergrad. I'm still not sure how I am going to define "home" in the days after the sale of "the farm" is final. I mean one of the reasons I fell in love with Steve was because he always wanted to live in a place like that. After it became apparent that our needs, careers, finances and abilities were not compatible with the farm we had to sacrifice the idea of living there too. After we moved, I realized that I would just have to let go - and that perhaps mom would too.

The house was a money pit and an endless strain on our family, but the location...the woods, the field, the hills, and streams I am sorry to lose. The choice was clear though - I mean why should my mom continue to struggle and try to manage the unmanageable just to keep this piece of land? She's spent the past 35 years trying to stay above water and put up with a lot of inconvenience just to get by out there. I'm very sad to see it go, but I have to acknowledge that this was a necessary change.

I'm hoping that after we adjust, this will be a positive and liberating transition for her - as well as the rest of us.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Music Find: Nuttin' but Stringz - A cool ass class act

I've been wanting to get the Nuttin' But Stringz album ("Struggle from the Subway to the Charts") after seeing them on Jack's Big Music Show last year. They are amazing. The group is a duo - two brothers from Queens, NY who are classically trained (read Julliard) musicians who blend magical classical sounds with hip-hop, r&b and jazz. It is simply wonderful. They are fantastic violinists and the tunes are beautiful, sexy and fun.

From Wikipedia: "Nuttin' But Stringz, also known as N.B.S., consists of two brothers, Damien (18) and Tourie Escobar (20). The talented young musicians from Jamaica, Queens play an intense blend of Classical Music, Jazz, R&B, and Hip-Hop."

Anyway - I finally got around to downloading the album and LOVE it. Check it out.

I can't wait to maybe see them live one day. They are so much fun to watch.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Endlich zu Hause!

I finally made it home last night. The day started out fine, but there was a delay at LaGuardia that held up the plane to Pittsburgh. It was supposed to leave at 3:40 p.m., but ended up not leaving until almost 6 p.m. We landed in Pittsburgh around 7:30. Not a huge delay, but that still put me at home around 9:30. I was hoping I'd get to see kira before bedtime, but oh well.

Got to see her this morning, which was good enough! I got her a little backpack that looks like a little bear with overalls on that says I (heart) NY. At least Steve was still awake! We hung out and watched Bleach. Then I realized how pooped I was and went right to bed.

I need some coffee.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

HighEdWebDev 2007

Greetings from Rochester, NY! This is my second year attending HighEdWebDev a conference for web professionals in Higher Education. I'm getting ready to sit through my last session of the conference and I've been quite happy with the quality of sessions this year. I've unexpectedly found myself not attending any sessions in the Usability track for once, rather I've been in more Social Applications and Content sessions and sessions on Marketing, Management and Professional Development. Anyway - the most disappointing this is that I'm the only one from WVU OIT here. WVU Web Services only sent one person this year becasue he's presenting, but they do have a university presidential inauguration to prepare for, so that is understandable. There a several groups at OIT, however, which would benefit greatly by sending someone to this. Our programmers and sys admins, my boss and any of or all of the training group would get a lot out of this. I have attended several web design conferences, so it's hard to surprise me with new info anymore. These other groups though, don't focus on the quality of web development as much as they should, but they all work with it even if their titles are not specifically "web-related."

Anyway...the last presentation is starting now, so I'm going to log off and listen.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Wonderful News for Student Loan borrowers!

From the Gavel:

Last week, Speaker Pelosi sent the College Cost Reduction and Access Act to the President for his signature. The legislation will help millions of students and families pay for college at no new cost to taxpayers, boosting college aid by roughly $20 billion over the next five years. This morning, the President signed the landmark college student financial aid bill into law and now the College Cost Reduction and Access Act is looking for somebody to love:

For more info on this legislation visit:

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Kira's not a baby anymore :(

OK, so this shouldn't be sad, but our little girl really isn't a baby anymore. She turned 2 on Sunday and had a really nice little party at our house to celebrate. Yesterday she started at her new daycare, too. We felt so happy dropping her off yesterday - and this morning. Something we haven't felt since January. She was just really happy to be there and it is just such a much nice place to bring her. No treacherous stairs to climb. No packs of wild children running around. No garbage in the parking lot from a nearby ever-overflowing dumpster (mostly due to the discount furniture store on the first floor). Best of all when we picked her up yesterday she was playing on the swing set with two other kids and didn't rush to us to leave. We also got to actually talk to the person who watched her all day. We also were halfway home when we looked at the clock realized that by that time we'd normally be picking her up from her old daycare and still have to make it back across town.

These past 2 years have gone by so fast. She's our sparkley, happy little girl and we love her so much. I'm sad that I don't see a baby anymore when I look at her, but I am also filled with amazement and love at how wonderful she is.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Visit with Chris & Barry

When I posted my brief update the other day, I neglected to mention my dear friend Chris stopping by for a visit on the 27th. He and his boyfriend Barry came to WV for a short visit and it was wonderful to see them. We had dinner at our place and Amber and Amelia came over too. Kira and Amelia had a great time from what I could tell doing 2-year-old stuff and Steve whipped up a great meal for us to enjoy outside on our patio. Chris lives way far away in Seattle, so it is always great to get to visit with him. The nice thing is, I never feel like the distance really changes anything. It was also wonderful to finally meet Barry. He's so nice. I hope he had a good time, too. I think this was his first visit to WV. People who have never been here always have lots of preconceived notions about our state...some true, most not. was a good visit, even though it was short. Hopefully we'll get to come out to Seattle sometime not too far away.

Fred Thompson running for President...WHO CARES?

I just read this on CNN:

"(CNN) -- After months of not-so-coy will-he-or-won't-he political flirtation, Fred Thompson has finally and officially announced that he is a candidate for the 2008 Republican presidential nomination."

My question is...does ANYONE CARE? Aside from the candidate of course. I just wonder why he think he has a chance in an already crowded field. Am I missing something?

Does anyone really know who the hell he is anyway?

I'm probably giving this too much of a brush off, but I'm really tired or reading these headlines about whether he will run or not. I mean come on...does he really bring anything new to the table? He's just another older white dude on the Republican ticket. I'm just glad he finally announced so those who write these stupid headlines and seem to think we care whether this guy is in the game or not can stop speculating.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Time flies by

Well faithful readers...what have I been up to. Lots of stuff happening this time of year.

Well, August 25 was my 32nd birthday. It was a fun time. I wanted to go to Hibachi Japanese Steakhouse for dinner that night so I asked a bunch of friends and immediate family to come out with me and help celebrate. It was fun. Kira did better with the chopsticks than I did, I think.

Then this past weekend (Labor Day) was our anniversary, and I made Steve come up with the plans for the day since I tend to decide what kinds of things we do. He decided to drive Kira and I down to Canaan Valley for lunch and a ride on the ski lift. It was a really nice day to be out and it was fun. We ate at the lodge which had a brunch buffet going on. The view from the top of the mountain was really spectacular. It really is a huge valley. It was a bit hazy though. The drive was really nice, though. I enjoy going through these little towns I never get to see like Thomas and Davis. I can't remember ever going through Parsons before, but we went back that way and I thought it looked like a nice little town. It really isn't that far away, but it is a nice change of pace. The windmills in Tucker County are also really cool. I don;t know why people get so upset about them. I think they look awesome. I would much rather see those than coal power plant smoke in the distance or cell phone towers. They are really impressive...and I thought they were really quiet.

Yesterday we went to my dad's for a labor day get together, which was fun. My sister and her husband were there, my brother Noah and family friends, Tom and Pat came by too. It was a nice afternoon. Kira was ornery and entertaining as usual.

Two weeks ago I also started teaching my class for the WVU School of Journalism again. This will be the fourth year I've taught. It is a lot to manage, but the class is always interesting. By that I mean getting to see what the students some up with design-wise.

That's all for now...have to go teach that class.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Friday, August 17, 2007

John Edwards wins my heart

I've been going back and forth between John Edwards and Barack Obama for the Democratic presidential nomination and I think I've finally decided to vote with my heart again. I voted for Edwards in 2004 in the primary and his addition to the Kerry ticket made it at least palatable. He is the only candidate who really understands - from what I can tell - what people from my region need. He is an incredibly intelligent guy and is truly concerned and consistently addresses the erosion of the middle class in thei country. He has identified predatory lending and the cycle of debt as major problems we have to deal with.

Until today, however, I wasn't sure how well he'd deal with foreign affairs, and he said exactly what needed to be dsaid about dealing with Iran. He's identified the key flaw with the way current administration is handling our foreign policy.

You cannot solve problems by simply NOT talking to your adversaries. It is a relatively simple concept, but sustained dialog is the most effective way to resolve differences. Here is an article from MSNBC discussing an article Edwards wrote for Foreign Affairs magazine: Edwards would open talks with Iran if elected

So, I've decided that although I really like Obama and think he is an inspirational and motivational leader - one that would, undoubtably, do a great job as president - I will be voting for John Edwards this spring.

I'm always impressed with Edwards and think he would be a wonderful president. Of all the candidates, I think he understands me and my concerns the best.

John Edwards' Plan To Build One America

Standing Up For Regular Families

In Depth
Forty-five million Americans lack insurance and families and businesses are struggling to pay skyrocketing premiums. Edwards has proposed a specific plan for truly universal health care that will take on the insurance and drug companies, cover every man, woman, and child in America, and get better care at lower cost.

Every day, 37 million Americans wake up in poverty. Personally committed to the cause of poverty, Edwards has outlined an ambitious agenda to eliminate poverty within a generation.

Middle-class wages have stagnated in recent years even as the economy has grown. Edwards will reverse Bush's tax policies and trade policies that have increased the burdens on workers and help families save and get ahead. He will also restore hope to America's forgotten rural towns and communities.

Restoring America's Leadership Role In The World

In Depth
Our standing in the world has been badly tarnished in recent years. America must once again be looked up to and respected around the world.

Edwards supports the immediate withdrawal of 40,000-50,000 troops from Iraq and the complete withdrawal of all combat troops from Iraq within about a year. We must also lead on the great challenges like ending the genocide in Darfur and the conflict in Uganda and fighting global poverty and diseases like AIDS, malaria, and tuberculosis.

A strong, principled national security policy is the foundation of America's strength. We must strengthen homeland security, stand by our soldiers at every turn, while respecting the Constitution and living up to our ideals in the fight against terrorism.

Investing In Our Future And Our Communities

In Depth

Global warming is a crisis that could fundamentally change our plan, creating hundreds of millions of deaths and starvation. Edwards will restore our energy independence by asking Americans to be patriotic about something other than war and building a new energy economy based on clean renewable energy and energy efficiency.

Fifty years after Brown v. Board of Ed., America still has two school systems, separate and unequal. To give every child an opportunity to get ahead, Edwards will invest in our teachers, educate our children for the challenges of the 21st century, and make college more affordable through College for Everyone.

We must honor our lifelong commitment to those who sacrifice the most for our country. Edwards will repair our sacred contract with America's military families and veterans.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

80 acres w/ House & Barn - Great Hunting Property

Price: $ 210,000.00 (Negotiable)
Listing type: For sale
Property Type: farm
Bedrooms: 3
Bathrooms: 1.5
Listing status: active
Style: two story
Lot size: 80 acres
Zip Code: 26405
County: Preston
School district: Fellowsville
Year: 1875
Water: Spring water
Sewer: Septic
Property taxes: $300.00 (if used as a working farm.)


For Sale By Owner: 80 acres of prime West Virginia hunting property with farmhouse. Plenty of fields for cattle or other livestock. Beautiful scenery and building locations. Excellent hunting (deer, turkey and bear), hiking or camping. Features: abundance of hardwood trees, blackberries, morels, black walnut, fresh spring water. Stream runs through property. An ideal location for a country getaway. House sold as-is, but has had numerous updates over the years. Enjoy the summer evenings watching fireflies on the wrap-around porch or star-gazing on the knoll. Wood burning stove keeps this house nice and cozy all winter.

Q: Where is this property?
A:This property is in Preston County in the the Fellowsville area (Reno District) near the Barbour/Preston County line. Exactly 1 hour from Morgantown, Fairmont, Clarksburg and Elkins. Half hour from Grafton and about 35 minutes from Phillipi and Kingwood.

Q: Does it have any road frontage? Tell me about the stream, how wide and deep and does it ever dry up. How fast moving? Does the stream run through it or border the property? Can a pond be dug out and fed by the stream?
A: There is road frontage and I am pretty sure you could create a strem fed pond. There are actually 2 streams in the field and - now that I think about it a third in the woods closer to the road. My husband considered damming the smaller stream for a small hydo electric system. The best place for a pond though would be in the field below the house. The stream runs pretty much through the middle and, honestly, the field gets pretty swampy if the season is particularly wet. We considered doing that when I was a kid, but never got around to it.
The stream has dried up in the past, but only during really heavy droughts. We've not had a drought over the last 10 years though. I'd say the stream flows at a fairly quick pace. Not rapids or anything, but nice and steady.

Q: Can you describe the lay of the land? Pasture, wooded, steep, valley, etc.
A: The property layout is probably best described as a valley. If you are looking at the valley from the road, you'd see the house at the end of a long driveway on the right side on the lower part of the hill. On the left are woods going up the hill (there is also a rather neglected shed). In the middle is a field with a stream running through the middle. At the end of the field are more trees. Above the house the hill is overgrown - mostly with blackberry bushes. The hill is fairly steep, but there is a road going to the top (need a 4 WD to get up it though). About midway up, there is a cleared knoll (that used to be home to a cabin). The view from the knoll is fantastic and a really nice place to camp or stargaze. My husband and I considered building a house there. On up the hill is a long field. It is also getting overgrown with blackberries, but it is also a great place to camp.

Q: Does the property include subsurface rights?
A: No. It is my understanding that most of the farmers in the area sold the subsurface rights around the beginning of the 20th century.

Q: Do you have any photos of the property?
Yes! Please see the Picasa Gallery of photos (includes a more accurate map under the Map photos feature.)

Q: When can we come see the property?
A: Just give us a call or email and we'll set up a time. Call 304-864-3612 (from 5:00-9:00 p.m. EST) or 304-265-5424 (until 9:00 p.m. EST) or email or

You can also Instant Message (anytime during the day, unless I am away from the computer): sbahnsmmllc (AIM) or (Google Talk).

Name: Sarah Barnes
Phone: 304-864-3612

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Student Loans finally getting attention by Congress

I've been talking about this problem for years and have written both Sens. Byrd and Rockefellar on this issue. I was surprised and please to see this story yesterday.

Congress acts to cap monthly payment for low-income student borrowers

Of course President Bush doesn't like it, but they mention some specific items that I have been calling for such as student loan forgiveness for public service careers.

So support these bills. This is an incredible opportunity for our country to tackle student loan debt.

Friday, July 20, 2007


I just spilled a little bit of coffee on my new Apple keyboard here at work. Now the keys are acting funny. I hope it will dry out and be fine, but boy I feel like a dumbass.

Luckily, I had an extra Dell keyboard from my old computer still here, so I can use it. The pretty white keys were so nice though.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Draft College Republicans

I watched this on Huffington Post today. What a bunch of fucking hypocrites.

Read the article on Huffington Post or

Watch it here:

Untitled from huffpost and Vimeo.

Monday, July 16, 2007

The Police: Live in Concert

Steve and I were fortunate enough to get to see the Police Saturday night at Chruchill Downs in Louisville, KY. We were 11 rows back from the stage in the middle, so we had and excellent view. The best seats I've ever had at a concert. It was a great show and we had a great time. Steve is a huge Police fan and didn't get to see them in the 80's, so this really made his night. I thought they played fantastically and it really didn't seem to me that they'd not been playing together all these years. I guess there were about 35,000 people there and it was a really nice venue. The weather cooperated too, which was lucky. I think my favorite song they did was King of Pain. I was really looking forward to Roxanne, but I think it was actually kind of overshadowed by most of their other songs. The light show was also excellent and probably better from farther back. It's the best I've seen at a show - which isn't saying much because I haven't been to many, but it was really awesome.

Here is a story about the show: The Police thrill crowd in Louisville (Photo by Kylene Lloyd)

Sting's son's (Joe Sumner - click for photo) band FictionPlane opened for them and they were really good as well. He sounds a lot like his dad.

We stayed at the Courtyard by Marriott hotel near the airport and it was really nice too. The beds were really comfy.

Overall it was just a really nice time and I'm really happy Steve and I could go and have fun.

Kira had a great time at home visiting with "Faffie" and "Papa" (steve's mom and dad). I don't think she missed us at all!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Study: Women Are in Charge at Home

I thought this was an interesting article. Made me think about the difference between previous generations and relationships that are happy and have lasted and those that don't or are unhappy. I think most telling is this quote from the article:

"One reason for in-charge wives could be that they carry the weight of making sure the family farm is running smoothly.

'Women are responsible for overseeing the relationship, making sure the relationship runs, that everything gets done, and that everybody's happy,' Murphy said.

Wife power could signal a harmonious couple. 'There's been research that suggests that's a marker of a healthy marriage—that men accept influence from their wives,' Murphy said."

Could it be that unhappy or unsuccessful marriages are such simply because the wife's opinions are not respected by the husband? Is that just an oversimplification? At any rate, I'm sure that communication is of course paramount to people getting along. I guess if you don't think your partner is going to listen to you , you'll eventually shut up and not talk any more thus causing more problems.

Here is the article:

Study: Women Are in Charge at Home

"Men might throw their weight around at the office, but at home, women are the bosses.

A study, which was just released, finds that wives have more power than their husbands in making decisions and dominating discussions."

Monday, July 09, 2007

Managers Find Ways To Get Generations To Close Culture Gaps

I've been hearing a lot lately about how Gen Y is forcing change in the corporate world. Us Gen X'ers are kind of stuck in the middle of two HUGE generations and I think it will be interesting to see how the working world changes because of this younger set.

From the Wall Street Journal:

Baby boomers, born between 1946 and 1964, still make up the majority of U.S. employees, but increasingly they're being supervised by or working closely with Generation X'ers, born between 1965 and 1977, and are joined by younger "millennials," or Gen Y employees, the newest additions to staffs. And there are still many "traditionalists" on board, as those in their mid-60s are called. Motivating each of these generations to work together requires managers to relinquish a one-style-fits-all approach to their subordinates. Read the Story

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Monday, April 09, 2007

Back to "normal"

Trying to get back into the routine today. Yuck. :)

The last week and a half have been an interesting mixture of the best and worst. The worst: March 31 - gall bladder surgery. But I got to go home the next day. Steve's mom came up to help out and visit. It was really nice to visit with her and I'm very grateful she could come and help with Kira. Kira had a great time visiting with her too. She's taking to calling her "Fafie." I told Kira one day (before all this) that Grandma Cathie was on the phone, so she repeated "Fafie."

Thursday, the day she left to go back to Teays Valley, Todd, Amy and Joplynn came to visit from Michigan. They left yesterday. It was great to see them and visit. Amy and I did some major damage shopping on Friday which was fun. We actually had two strangers laugh/comment on the amount of stuff we had accumulated. I thought that was pretty funny. Joplynn is adorable and I think Kira had a lot of fun meeting and playing with "Jopin."

Tonight I have to teach my class for the fist time in three weeks. I don't mind teaching at all, it's just kind of a drain to have to stay late in town. Only a few more weeks to go.

Back to work...

Friday, March 30, 2007

blogging from the hospital

Found out I need to have my gall bladder removed. I started vomiting yesterday and couldn't keep anything down. I have an intense pain in my abdomen that radiates to my back. It's the kind of pain where you cannot get comfortable. We went to MedExpress first to see if they could help. The did what they could and gave me phenagren and demerol. Neither did anything for the pain, so the doc recommended we go ahead to the ER. He suggested Mon General so the wait wouldn't be as long. So that's where we went. So here I am.

I hope I don't have to stay the entire weekend, but hopefully it won't be too bad.

Kira gets tubes in her ears Tues. too. I just hope I'm not out of commission too long.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Our house this winter

Originally uploaded by sbahns.
Just a winter scene of our house.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Tehran condemns 'anti-Iranian' movie 300

So the Iranians are rather about the movie 300, based on the Frank Miller graphic novel claiming it is part of anti-Iranian propaganda in the US. What I find hilarious about this contention is that they actually think that Americans in general are knowledgeable enough about history to know that Persia and Iran are the same place.

By saying that they are actually giving the American public much more credit than they realize. Hell, I seriously doubt that most of the people who see it in the US even know where Greece is much less Persia. Here's a link to a story about it: Tehran condemns 'anti-Iranian' movie 300

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Party Poopers: Critics denounce Pizza Hut reading program

Ok, so I see their point about this program promoting "junk food" and forcing a corporate entity on kids. HOWEVER. BOOK IT! started when I was in 5th grade and it was a really really great motivator for me and, hell, my entire class to get into reading. It is simply a fun program for kids and if it gets them into reading, I really don't see the problem.

What's worse a bunch of incurious skinny kids who are going to be slaves to corporate America anyway or a bunch of well-read, smart fat kids who will be more likely to think for themselves because of all the books they've read?

Critics denounce Pizza Hut reading program

It just seems like another cheap ass attempt to take responsibility for healthy habits away from parents and their kids. Our entire culture contributes to obesity, so condemning one really beneficial program because some researchers claim it contributes to our fat butts doesn't make a damn bit of sense to me.

Hell, some kids in my school never got to eat out anyway because they were poor, so this was a huge deal for them. In my family for a long time, this was the only time we actually got to eat at Pizza Hut, so it was pretty fun. Also to a kid (at least in the 80's), getting your own "personal" pizza was really neat.

I really don't care for Pizza Hut pizza, nowadays. I think, however, that it's far more important for people to read who might not otherwise be motivated to do so than to worry if the program is making them fat.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Rough week

We've had a hell of a week. I think the only thing worse than dealing with a sick baby is both parents being sick at the same time and the baby not being sick.

Monday Kira had a fever and we figured she wouldn't be allowed at daycare, so I stayed with her at dad's while Steve was at work. I had to teach that night, so I had to be in town. Steve doesn't have much sick time built up either, so we need to be frugal. Anyway about mid-way through the day I started to feel my throat getting sore and a headache. I called Steve close to the end of the day and he was feeling pretty ill, so he was going to leave early. By the time he showed up I was starting to have chills. He walks in and his lips are pale and he looks like he feels awful. So it's obvious by this point that we're both sick - him more than me. I go to teach and feel progressively worse.

On the way home we both feel even worse and the chills get even more severe...especially for Steve. We decide to get some cold/flu medicine at the store just in case. By the time we pull in the garage and get out, Steve can hardly hold anything he's shaking so bad. He goes in the house first and Kira and I follow. I drop Kira off in the living room and make a pit stop. When I come out I ask Steve if he ok and I hear a pitiful "No."

He's huddled on a chair next to a radiator with a blanket around him shaking and obviously pretty freaked out. At this point, I'm feeling pretty bad, too, but Steve is way worse off than me. We take our temperatures his is 101.5, mine 100.9 and Kira's around 97. So I do my best to try and reassure him and make him comfortable and usher Kira up to bed. She's a little freaked out too, but goes to bed without a fight.

We both take flu medicine and hope for the best. I bring an air mattress downstairs for him to lay down on, but he's afraid to move. Soon after, Steve gets even more sick, vomits and fights chills and nausea almost the entire night. I try to get in a few winks on the couch, but wake up with severe chills at 3 am. I go to get another blanket and on my way back I start to hurt all over and feel like I am going to pass out. I drink some water, but quickly vomit it up. Amazingly though, this acutally made me feel a little bit better, but my throat is more sore than it has ever been and my mouth is incredibly dry.

We make it to early morning (I think 4 am) and Steve is able to pull himself upstairs to get Kira who has woken up a little early. I can't hardly move.

Needless to say Kira was not happy to be relegated to the pack-n-play while we tried to sleep some more, but she finally went to sleep again.

By 8:30 it looks like the worst had past, but we still felt really ill. We went to the dr. and found out we had strep throat and had maybe caught a short-lived GI virus on top of that.

So I ended up with 3 days off of work, but it was really rough. The only thing I could think of aside from "I hope Steve just has a bug and it will pass" was "how are we going to take care of Kira if we are both sick?"

I think it is the first time I have felt powerless as a parent...I'm sure it won't be the last, but it was a very upsetting.